Moral of the story is....

Alright so....my internet at my apartment sucks STILL.  My landlord is still rude but magically the internet is working today (kind of) so while I have a few bars of internet, I'll try to post a blog.  I have been sucking at this blog thing but I haven't been totally sucking at this diet thing which is the good news!  I had my one month diet-versary on the Sunday, September 22nd I celebrated by having dinner with my friend at a restaurant where I ordered a quesadilla instead of the burger I wanted (which she ordered).  The quesadilla I got was still greasy and full of carbs and fat which was absolutely disgustingly delicious!  How did I feel the next day at work?  Like shit!  That's right!  So I ignored them in my fridge and didn't eat the rest until Tuesday night and how did I feel on Wednesday?  Like a giant, greasy, angry, leftover, quesadilla!  So how did I sulk about it on Wednesday and punish myself (as well as deal with womanly PMS)?  I ate pasta!  So guess what happened today.....  just guess!  I got a migraine!  I haven't had one of my migraines in over a month and a half!  So I punished myself by staying at work and I am vowing to not let myself be an idiot that many days in a row again.  Moral of the story?  I can only be an idiot one day a week, because more than that leads to disgusting days, crabby Laurel's and migraines.  Not cool.  On the bright side.....the weather around here has been absolutely WONDERFUL!  The leaves are starting to turn colors!  I am enjoying my walks around the lake (while it's still warm enough to do them) because the trees are starting to look so beautiful and the people just look so happy! :)

Musical Inspiration: Lately it's been a lot of gangsta rap business goin' on.  Not sure why, but I'm diggin' it!  (As I write this actually I'm listening to Travis Porter which sounds like a white, country dude's name, but he's not.  Googs it if you don't believe me.)

Wow. It's been a while!

So...basically my landlord is NOT cool.  My Internet does not work at my apartment but "there are no other complaints" so he's not worried about fixing it and I'm not going to stay at work much longer than I have to....ANY WHO.... So why am I here?  Oh!  That's right!  My obesity!  So, I have been working hard at eating well and have been doing very well at it with only a couple of slip ups here and there.  The funny thing is that when I would gorge myself before, I felt the same, but now that I have not been eating crap....I feel like crap when I eat it.  Weird, right?  I have been taking medication that was prescribed to me from my weight management doctor that has been helping me with craving and boy does it ever!  I feel like I'm never hungry.  It's such a freeing feeling!  Last week I had a seven day pass at my best friend's amazing gym and if the membership wasn't so expensive or if I made more money (or had a sugar daddy) I would FOR SURE sign up!  It was such an awesome week!  I went almost every day.  After work, I actually looked forward to going to work out.  Now the membership is over and I'm sad.  But I have to get my ass in gear because I have an actual membership I CAN afford at a place that I'm not using.  How stupid is that?!  At the amazing gym though, I did use the electronic scales and from August 22nd until September 12th, I have lost 13 pounds.  It's not that much....but it's something, right?  It's not even about the weight for me anyway, because you know what???  I FEEL AWESOME!  I have more energy and I can tell the difference from before.  I think that's worth more than the number and my ultimate goal isn't a number.  My goal is to get to a healthy and very mobile size.  Not that I'm not mobile...I can move and stuff, but when you carry around an extra hundred or so pounds, you can't be able to move as well as if you DIDN'T have that weighing you down.  I think that since I'm about a month into this weight loss journey, I'm doing pretty well.  I'm could be doing better but I also could have given up already and NOT lost weight, so that's worth something, ay?

Musical inspiration:  Lots of different types of music, including "My Humps" "Thriller" "MmmBop" "Gangsta Lovin'" "Party in the USA" "Miss Independent" and much much more! :)

Dear grocery store center aisles....you will not win!

What a crazy last couple of days!  Work has just been awesome and I just feel amazing!  I feel like I have a little more energy during the day.  Now, I don't know if that's from how great work is or because of the change in my diet...but I'll take it! :)  I didn't have a chance to go walking yesterday, because I had book club.  I had a little bit of a break in my diet when I got there, because the girl who was hosting book club made a delicious meal.....breakfast for dinner.  So it was high carb and fat and absolutely delicious!  I didn't take as much as I normally would have and I felt hungry when I got home late, but I went to bed instead of eating.  It's definitely not easy, but I figure if I felt too hungry, I could just cry myself to sleep.  I was determined NOT to get something to eat!  The last few weeks, I have proven to myself that I can have self control and it feels wonderful!  THEN.... after work today, I went to walk around the lake and needed to go get some more fruit and veggies from the store.  What did I make the mistake of doing?  Wandering down aisles and not sticking to the outside of the store.   And what aisle did I find myself in when I was hungry and hadn't had dinner yet?  The frozen foods section where there were so many pizzas in the freezers and they just needed a good home.... So instead of buying a pizza, pasta, or chips...I called my best friend!  She basically talked me out of buying anything that I didn't need and instead talked about tomorrow's workout "date" which was just what I needed to think about.  So I hung up the phone, put down the box of Reese's Puffs cereal and checked out.  Oh man!  Close call!  Laurel=1, unhealthy food aisles=0.  I'm feeling fantastic!  And this cantaloupe is more delicious than ice cream (I just have to tell myself this)...

My musical inspiration today:  Today was all about country!  There were many artists who helped me get a little pep in my step today!

A little bit of progress!

I got a call last night from the Medical Weight Management clinic letting me know that they had an appointment time open up.  I didn't get the call until I was done with work and they were closed.  HOWEVER, I called bright and early in the morning today and she said it was taken BUT she had just had a cancellation for 3:30 pm today.  Yikes!  Talk about short notice.  I told her I needed to take it, but I need to speak with my boss.  Can I just say that I have some of the best bosses ever?  I will!  I have some of the best bosses ever!  I went to talk to my boss and told her what was up and she was like "Yeah, it will be no problem.  You need to go to this!"  She is so awesomely supportive and I am EXTREMELY lucky to not only love my job, but also have a great boss!  Anywho, so I showed up a little early but got in quickly.  And an update on my mom's scale.....it's accurate!  I have lot about 6 pounds in 2 weeks!  Now, I know it's not much, but I'm happy.  As my mom said "That's 6 pounds you LOST not 6 pounds you GAINED."  So I guess I'm pretty proud of my little 6 pounds!  The doctor said that it seems like I'm heading in the right direction and is going to prescribe me a medication that will help suppress my constant "hunger" which will help me a lot!  So all in all, Today was absolutely awesome!  Work went so well today and so did the appointment!  Also, I switched from wheat bread to oatnut bread, because I cannot stand the taste of wheat.  I have found my new favorite bread and will definitely be having more sandwiches! :)

Musical inspiration of the day:  Ed Sheeran.  I love his voice (and face).

Must. Not. Give. Up.

Oh my!  I haven't posted since August!!!!  Oh wait, that's only about a week.  So I stayed at my moms for over a week and managed to fight off the urge to partake in eating all the treats!  I actually feel immensely proud of myself, because I was nervous that I wouldn't have much self control.  Also, I tried some fried food from a restaurant (mini corn dogs with fries) and GUESS WHAT???  I didn't like them!  I LOVED to eat those when I was out at the bars.  I have been extremely cutting down on my processed food consumption and all of a sudden, about two weeks in, it just doesn't taste that good anymore.  Maybe it was just cooked wrong....but I'm going to say that it's because I haven't been eating that junk.  Since I've posted, I school started so now I'm back at the high school and I'm so excited for this year!  I'm definitely going to be trying to plan my meals better though... School lunch can be okay sometimes, but (I'm pretty sure) the school figures out when I forget my lunch or have no groceries because it is no bueno when I eat it usually.  Today was nachos with very salty chips, processed cheese, sour cream, and other junk.  I could barely eat any of it, because....yikes.  Not good.  So I went grocery shopping and got some more fruit, hummus, and a few other things, and left before I could buy junk food.  This diet thing is tough stuff!  I can definitely see how rooted my food addiction is.  A few days ago, I was literally fighting with myself to stay sitting on the couch instead of going to the kitchen to get some of the chips that were sitting on the counter.  My foot was shaking and I was fidgeting with my hands.  I stayed strong, but it was NOT easy.  But I'm still working on it and I'll continue to work on it, because it has to be done.  The highlight of this last weekend?  I weighed myself and it shows that I lost 5 pounds since they weighed me at my appointment.  In less than two weeks, I lost 5 pounds.  I'm not sure if the scale is off and I've not lost anything, but I would like to think that I have.  So I'm going to think that I have!  So there!

Musical Motivation Today: Jesse J....again.  I just can't help but feel like I'm walking in heels with attitude when she's singing....I just love her.